The Reality that saddened me

As I'm typing this blog today, my heart is saddened by the truth that what I dreamed to have wouldn't be real: now, tomorrow or soon. We're just Soul Mates but not real partners in life.

My heart cries that my hopes wouldn't be realize (even thought I started to take my own path away from it; to forget the feelings and the magic I've seen and felt and continue living my life) but there is the still voice and hope that things would be as what I’ve dreamed to be. I'm saddened on the truth that was laid in front of me. I am sad of what good my painting of our life would be if we really are to seal the fate with rings, I do's and commitment for life. I'm distraught with the reality that our path weren’t really meant to intertwined with each other ‘till we get older. I’m dismayed with the truth that I wouldn’t able to end the story I’m planning to tell to everyone all about…  It’s happy moments, the magic of waiting for the right moment, the proper touch on things divine, the beauty and wonder of love. I’m saddened really.

This was what life is all about. We might not want to accept what is being given to us because we wanted to dwell on thing we had on the past life, but we need to move on. Pity on the beautiful future I’m hoping we both take to shed light to the next generation what’s best to do. Pity on my heart which expects too much from things. Pity on you too for you won’t be able to experience my sweet endearing love and care which I wanted to shower upon you.

How to know if you're IN Love, the real one

1. He's the first and the last person in your mind.

At the time that you wake, the first name you had in your mind or the first person you see in your imagination is Him/ Her... then that is one among the signs you love, care and important to you

2. You keep on checking his/ her facebook account.

when you have the opportunity or even during busy moments you eventuallytake a time to check on his/ her account. Checking if he/she logged in last night, what are the new post he had, did click on the like button or comment to anybody else. There were points where you will asked yourself, "Why is it that he wouldn't leave any comment or just like the button for any status or post you had. and you became jealous of your friends because he/ she did participate on their postings.

Thus it breaks your heart, but when she/he did like a post... even once only... your heart swells and make your smile widen neglecting the possibility of having muscles cramps due to the entire day your lips kept the sweet smile.

3. Your heart leaps with joy when he/she texted you.

It makes you wonder and fight within you if you'll be drafting and sending him/her a text just to give him/ her reason  (or you) to communicate with each other. But when he/ she's the one who texted you out of the blue, what a joy it creates within you. You seem like your floating in the sky and all the people around you will be amaze 'cause even situations is worse, you still are cool headed person... and the only text  he/she'd is " hello there, God bless your day." And the worst part is  it's only a forwarded message...

But hell... whatever it is as long as you received a text from him/her

4. Reminiscing the past

When you aren't busy, the usual thing you do is to remember the moments where you talked, you meet, you dine with friends or the simple things as you seen him/ her (unconscious and you aren't sure if it's you) smile at you. Remebering those makes you elated, inspired and happy the whole day.


5. Missing / wanting him/ her

wanting to see him/ her everyday is your dream. There were times that you really want to see or meet him just to talk, chit-chat or to be with him/ her counts a lot for  you. And sometimes you feel like your day i s not enough because you didn't see/ talk or just texted or PM him/ her..

There were points where in you feel like you're sick because your aren't inspired, nor you aren't complete because his/her presence weren't  felt by you.

6.  Making future plans

During vacant time or when future is mentioned, you start to plan about what would your future like. you create dreams of a flourished house, a vacation trips, a dignified dates or anythings... and your not just alone... you include him/ her on those plans. making him/her your partner in life, your hero, or just simply the cuddling moment or kissing moments which tickled all your senses.